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A twenty-eight your old ascensualist? Sounds promising.

A month of thresholds: my birthday today, and five days later my ten-day silent retreat at Suan Mokkh monastery in Thailand. Birthdays always make me super-conscious of The State of The Blonde Nation, but this has been heightened even further by the retreat, which  looms like an elipsis in my brain: a mental cheesewire that slices everything I read, see and do into startling polarities.

London Fashion Week (how did anyone get anything done with that damn live stream always lurking behind a tab?); preparing to wear yoga pants, t-shirts and flip-flops for ten days. Glorying over the skate and samphire at Pizza East; thinking about the prospect of eating nothing beyond noon. Working on a presentation for Wildscreen, the festival of environmental and wildlife filmmaking; knowing I will be immersed in the real thing – majestic mountains, serious bugs – three days before I present it. Staying awake two hours later than I should because I just have to finish The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society ( basically The Shipping Forecast – nautical, martial, nostalgic, soporific – in literary form); facing the terrifying prospect of nigh-on two weeks without access to a single book.

Sensualist, meet ascetic. Both have a sort of romance. Both bring a sort of authenticity.

Will they fight? How will the before and after manifest itself? Will the cheesewire cut me in two like a crumbling Wensleydale or get, Brie-like, engulfed without a trace?

Will it hurt?

I did go on Asos and find a lovely overpriced poncho for elegantly stoic endurance of Thai rain.

A twenty-eight your old ascensualist? Sounds promising. Welcome to another year, Blonde.

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  • Dagmar

    Happy birthday! You share the same birthday as Euripides, who was born in 480BC on Salamis, an island near Athens, on the same day as the Battle of Salamis when the Greeks defeated the Persians. Auspiciously, Euripides is known for creating strong female characters. Interestingly, he said, “The good and the wise leave quiet lives.” Also, “Do not consider painful what is good for you.” Also, “Leave no stone unturned.” Significantly, “Do not consider painful what is good for you.” Enigmatically, “There is just one life for each of us: our own.”

  • Dagmar

    I repeated, above, “Do not consider painful what is good for you,” for some reason, maybe because you are heading for such a severe but beneficial regime In Thailand.

    1000heads binned my birthday greeting to you there where I also alerted them & you to the Radio 4 programme last night at 9.30pm about extreme mathematics and imaginary numbers. Still, you may have been otherwise engaged. Well, you are otherwise engaged.

    Anyway, I like this Euripides, who said, “Authority is never without hate.” Also, “Those whom God wishes to destroy, he first makes mad.” Also, “He was a wise man who originated the idea of God.”

    And particularly, “Cleverness is not wisdom.” Phew! Now there’s a proper dude.

  • gavdoyler

    what creepy messages. Happy Birthday!

  • marijane

    dagmar makes good comments ditto euripides….hummmmm

  • Dagmar

    Oh dear, I didn’t mean to be creepy! I mean, it’s not everyone who’s born on the same day as Euripides, is it? I like Molly’s blog, that’s all and sort of pay attention to what she’s saying.